Sad, but true. The narcissist starts to panic now that his narcissistic supply is failing.# This actually naturally occurs with people who are narcissistic. They might say something like, I hated the way my ex dressed, they never made an effort for me. We finally spoke via phone in July and we got into a huge argument and I let him have it; this time verbally and he almost lost his mind. When you were together, theyd say things like, you cant do anything without me. and thats the hard part. I never did nothing but fallin love with a man who lied to me . Unfortunately he knows my pickup and plate number! Thats the last thing anyone needsincluding him! Keeping you mine. He will never change, hes not capable. A Narc will do the same thing to his next target. Prefers the Im so much better/deserve more than you attitude. He shared school supplies and candy with me. Suing her for $43,000. He lies about the present, he tried to make me think I was crazy about the people he talked to. Stay strong!! 2. This seems to be true no matter what has happened before. I cant imagine being married to him. They wont ever leave if we do. We could only dine at restaurants he went to with her family. Your articles give me the strength to keep going. Maybe a couple of conversations will be amazing, but dont let on they are. (or so im told) To escape this situation she married an older man. If you have issues with this image being used, you should contact them. They are used you are not used as a chance for you to have knowledge that No one will really understand why I leave but it no longer matters to me what others think, they have not lived in the cloaked hell that has been a 20 year prison. The gameplan of your ex sounds familiar. (His initials werent IF by any chance?). Jill, hate is a very strong emotion. He told me they have not had sex yet and that their relationship of 7 months started as friends, then best friends then relationship. So, does this mean, he is not into her and wants to come home but making it hell for me to show power and control. Narcissistic rage is not like normal anger, its an uncontrollable and subconscious desire to lash out. He has multiple relationships and always has drama. Before you know it, you have forgiven their faults, had babies by them and years have gon by and now you wish you would have left sooner. Whole story that he is not happy with that other person etc. It depends on how long you two have been together. Good luck. settlement, yet he does not have a solicitor. I think disordered women make far better/effective liars then men in general, so the pain can be even worse for a male victim. Thats why to get many of them in the same group is no surprise to professionals, so the term psychopathic mob was coined, and what me and you are in, is known as character assassination. There was a place that was open and never seemed to be fulfilled before but youre doing a great job of filling it. Excellent writing again. Broken. Just the other days one the ladies that works with me said its nice to get the old you back meaning I am just starting to be my old self again and it feels really good. And it will be if you go back. I just been able to come out of my house in months and hes playing mind games while I take the high road. yes, he is fearful of my presence and tells the kidss, I dont want your mother anywhere near me, lol. If you get suspicious, they may cut off that contact again, at least temporarily. Does anyone have any tips on getting over a narcissistic ex? Above all, your main focus would want to be getting primary custody of your child if you can. Forgot to include how important the No Contact is. I dont acknowledge her birthday or anniversary. They are so patient like a wild animal waiting to strike. Hes a lost cause unfortunately. That being said, I struggle with the feelings about his Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde routine. He refuses to talk to me hes very busy. Fathers of their children.. I love having a full-time, personal audience. To my core. Hes shown you his true nature, and that will never change, as you know. I spent many days and nights feeling like I was on the verge of a breakdown, dying inside over that man. D and coping with leaving a sociopath husband. I have observed, however, that it depends on the person, how much they should know to heal. I need help connecting my head to my heart. Also, the idea, that he fell right into the NPD diagnoses, but without the nastiness. He is now with that other person. He said basically, youre describing a sociopath; Im not a liar and Im not crazy. He left his wife in May and by June he was already having the affair ( which im assuming he pursued the other woman months before and when she finally agreed, he left his x wife). All I can hope for w/ my NPD/BPD is that Life serves him a cold dish of karma, and perhaps a nice swift kick right where he needs it, so the he wont be so obsessed w/ funstuff, or play a person like a toy for a long, long whileand I hope Ill be around to hear about it. Hugs and healing to you. Early in our relationship my ex hubby wanted to get back together and he said while he loved me, he understood that my children needed their dad and if it was something I wanted he would step aside for the sake of my family. I spent so much money on marriage counseling only for me to look like the crazy one while he played the victim dealing with my erratic outbursts. My heart is holding on for dear life, even tho I dont want to! Its been six months . Just because you are no longer married doesn't mean that life after divorce from a narcissist is going to be total freedom. This lady told me that this person who was a past love (its him by all descriptions), although it may seem that his circumstance has changed externally, internally, emotionally and mentally, nothing has changed. One thing that helped me was that I kept journals, and every now and then when Im reading through them, I remember all the hateful, evil, and cruel things he did and said to me. When i have had a daughter it would break my heart when she lives here life besides a N. As an extension of this SuperGod.. Where my precious daughter with so much giving love and trying. We can work it out. The last four years together ( out of 8 ) were hell! I know he was abused by his Dad growing up and thats why he has this disorder. The best thing to do is be yourself and let the Narc back himself into a corner. I just need to share this as I feel lost sometimes, but on the right path.I wanted to share this, as I am scared of my ex. Yes, Kim is right, the label doesnt matter, but the healing is important. I told him that I was sick. He texts me last night angry and drunk (super attractive that is lol) and I responded one time, quite rudely, and then blocked the bastards number and went to sleep. His dad just loved that dog more than anything. Other then that we were alright. Finally it is on record. She still denied being with him on the weekends she disappeared but I couldnt take anymore and ended it. In the end, though, I won. I think I triggered something during my visit that was seen as critical of him. This gives them a great advantage over us. Reading Suggestion: The Narcissist Discard phase. I was with him lived together in his house with a narcistic mother all day long in his house. I was for a while, because of his manipulations, but even he could not stifle my true nature and I started to rebel against his influence..even if it was well-meaning as he always claimed. He worked on me till he boke me . -Retaliation and punishment with extended silent treatments and cold detachment She actually blocked me from her social media within just a few short weeks of me sending her a few texts about wondering where my money was. Im not responding to any more calls or texts. Happy with girlfriend, but thinks you guys should be friends Translation: Somethings not on the up and up and/or he has discovered some way that getting back in touch with you will benefit him. Thats the thing, any female is going to be neglected if they are involved with Cameron in any way friend, colleague, lover, boyfriend, father, son, brother. Lose the Loser! I know if he hadnt come along I would have gone back for more. But just when i get myself out of bed after two weaks of perralised in bed.. just when i started to take care of myself, looked good and accept it.. A narcissist will never allow you to escape, let alone figure them out. I became recluse. Is It Not A Form Of Control Over You? I was blocked on her facebook Why you put up with it all. There is Always some way to give a sign of living. I was just so proud of myself that i managed to get my live back on track. Despite it has be very hard at times, I believe the best thing is to take all abusive comments and treatments (in such a short space of time I have encountered a lot of those! its not fair that you de-friended me on FB. Want to learn about the five stages of leaving a narcissist? Finally, a fourth reason that we care so much about if the narcissist is finished with us is that the narcissist did not give us closure. Finally, they discard you for some reason that usually seems inexplicable. How to take control away from a Narcissist? So because i have no friends it is a good thing to have him just as a friend. Worked for me when I wasnt even trying. I was his hope. This describes to a T the way I have been treated for the last four years I have been conditioned to wait and look forward to the next time we will spend together as she distances / hides away then draws me back in while I make excuses for her when Im asked questions about why she treats me like this . If you could read French and see his initial e-mails you might be able to understand how conflicted I am by all of this Love. She felt the same. This man i was with for 20 years cant possibly be best friends with the new girlfriend of 7 months. This man Ive known since I was 13, so 16 years now. Good for you! Feels like I am hitting the bottom also and I am struggling. I guess that applies to his relationship as well. I used this image through my account with Adobe Stock, which is a service I pay for on a monthly basis and which gives me license to use the image. Yes, this recovery is certainly tough. Where they accuse you of not making sense. Good for you that you feel strong now. I have gone through the shock, the anger, the grief, the self blame and have learned so much about myself..my strength and resilience, and ability to love. I have no energy to look out of my son and cook and clean.. To answer a few questions- i met her in a rough patch for both of us. Al those weekends he never answerd my tons of textings never. We constantly re-work our definition of what a relationship really is as they drift in and out, all around us, ghost-like. Then proceeds to tell me his ideas to address the problem. 3. I realize that sounds contradictory. As a side note, I had a little sexcapade a few days before with a friend, who left a passion mark on my neck and one right where the blouse crisscrossed on my chest that I didnt bother to try to hide. I went to court house for EPO and they couldnt do it, because he was silent for a week and wasnt threatening me etc. This enraged the narcissists because narcissists dont get dumped. Notify me of follow-up comments by email. He only neglected me, ignored me, lied over and over again, and all other behaviour narcissists have. I let my ex N in as a friend. His mask falls so quick when he cant get what he wants. If a letter comes, dont open it, burn it. This man was my first boyfriend and first kiss when we were growing up together. It eats me. Im glad you are able to get some sort of relief from reading my posts. Its very hard. He would have cleaned out my bank account, taken everything I had if I didnt wake up and start questioning and realizing finally it wasnt me. The therapist that was to support me said ,you need him. I really do. Everyone experiences jealousy because its a natural emotion. Because he had never a negative comment, it took me almost a year, to acknowledge myself for what he is, Still picking up the pieces of my shattered life, Ich also had a relationship with such a guy. My prayer is for continued healing for both of us. Its a terrible brain wash these creatures put us through. My beautiful Dad went before her and she was changing Wills the day he died, even changed his whilst he was alive and got away with it! He does recognize there is a problem with his lack of empathy and admitted to me he fakes that emotion a lot. On the other hand that voice Dont do it!! Telling him hes a Narc would only gets his back up and make him attack like a snake. Block him and move on. My oldest being 9 at the time would hug him and say she loved him and would get a quick pat of disgust with no love returned. Who could ask for anything more? We went on a date twenty years ago, as we were from the same home town and attended rival high schools. for ex., they dont diagnose children. The narcissist will tell you they dont know why the person is contacting them. FAST and PRAY That gets Gods eyes on you. Speaking as a woman who was ripped off of about $80,000 between the last two narcs/sociopaths I was involved with and who sweet-talked and seduced me and played Prince Charming so well they fooled everyone initially and then left me devastated and Im still suffering from PTSD and on meds years laterwell, it just doesnt seem fair to read what you wrote. 3. While playing the victim all along. He spend hundreds/thousands of dollars. I called the police. Flip the script and replace him. Thanks for sharing. Get help if you need to. If the narcissist was the one to end it, he or she might have cut us off, as if we never existed or mattered. But.. then he tells me how happy he is etc. He would not keep dates and wouldnt show up. You can only control yourself. Someone so incredibly impossible! Five minutes later, my landlady who lives about 100 ft. from my house calls and asks me if Im okay. To this day h will not admit this, I have even exchanged emails and texts with the woman who he had the affair with. Women narcs can be especially nasty. Even the tinest smile. I put her growing abusive and physical temper down to myself and not being good enough for her. In any case, I am going to pursue getting my money back through small claims. Where he used to be able to (really well) fake his love etc. At first, he tried doing friends with benefits but I declined. Thanks you all for the helpful advise. BPD type 2 is the only one that may come without psychopathy However, if you decide to apply to your situation, please, please, dont just assume. How to Know If a Narcissist is Finished with You: 9 Sure Signs. Hate Christmas thats comming. It was like I dropped off the face of the earth. They live across each other. Required fields are marked *. I know its the hardest thing to do but let go. I am continuing in counseling and it is going well, and I will continue to receive counseling as long as my counselor believes I need it. December 20th was the final day NO CONTACT since then (from me) I thought it was really over everyone said he has gone away. Later that week Im on the beach, and here they come while tending her dogs he stood next to me and small talk. Basically, If you don't like the way things are or who he is, then leave. Then I inserted the worst photo of the narc Id ever seen and said, Ill always remember you this way. Another great one! Then he wrote i am sorry but i dont want to stay friends with you no more you Cause to Much trouble and frustrations! Ive been reading about this all morning. Us having a conversation will not do either of us any good. So I would have to say my ex Narc is gone for good. -Seemingly secretive behavior Your Ex is using her to triangulate, and also as a flying monkey. Then when she feels like it, she unblocks me. Xx. Nothing great about it. I think they see the vulnerability, the good in people and exploit it. I am probably right! My husband thinks Im a nascacist and even tho I have not been diagnosed how are some ways I can tell if I am or not. Certainly dont miss the drama. Regarding your FB pics, you could try marking them as spam and then consider removing him as a friend if you havent already. I researched NPD and sure enough- totally described my husband. Climbed the mountain I, now, can just walk towards the light. i know that i am releeved and happy. I dont even know if you desire to changebut I brought it up because often when people are in emotional turmoil, thats what drives them to try to make these kinds of major changes in their lives about how they are interacting with the world. And the story will repeat again, maybe shell catch him and get out instead of staying like I did for 4 years. 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